ULYSSES
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The summer evening had begun to fold the world in its mysterious embrace. Far away in the west the sun was setting and the last glow of all too fleeting day lingered lovingly on sea and strand, on the proud promontory of dear old Howth, guarding as ever the waters of the bay, on the weedgrown rocks by Sandymount shore and, last but not least, on the quiet church whence there streamed forth at times upon the stillness the voice of prayer to her who is in her pure radiance a beacon ever to the stormtossed heart of man, Mary, star of the sea.
The three girl friends were seated on the
rocks,º enjoying the evening scene which
was fresh and not too chilly. Many a time and oft were they wont to come there
to that favourite
nook to have a
cosy chat and
discuss matters
feminine, Cissy Caffrey and Edy Boardman with the baby in the pushcar and
Tommy and Jacky Caffrey, two little curlyheaded boys, dressed in sailor suits
with caps to match and the name H.M.S.
Belleisleº printed on both. For Tommy
and Jacky Caffrey were twins, scarce four years old and very noisy and spoiled
twins at times but for all that darling little fellows with bright merry faces
and endearing
ways about them. They were dabbling in the sand with their spades and
buckets, building castles as children do, or playing with their big coloured
ball,º as happy as the day was long. And
Edy Boardman was rocking the
chubby baby to
and fro in the pushcar while that young gentleman fairly chuckled with delight.
He was but eleven months and nine days old and, though still a tiny toddler, was
just beginning to lisp his first babyish words. Cissy
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Caffrey bent over toº him to tease
his fat little plucks and the dainty dimple in his chin.
— Now, baby, Cissy Caffrey said. Say out big, big. I want a
drink of water.º
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And baby prattled after her:
Cissy Caffrey cuddled the wee chap for she was awfully fond of children, so patient with little sufferers and Tommy Caffrey could never be got to take his castor oil unless it was Cissy Caffrey that held his nose. But to be sure baby Boardman was as good as gold, a perfect little dote in his new fancy bib. No spoilt beauty was Cissy Caffrey. A truerhearted girl never drew the breath of life, always with a laugh in her gipsylike eyes and a frolicsome word on her cherryripe red lips, a girl lovable in the extreme. And Edy Boardman laughed too at the quaint language of little brother.
But just then there was a slight altercation between Masterº Tommy and Master Jacky. Boys will be boys and the two twins were no exception to the rule. The apple of discord was a certain castle of sand which Master Jacky had built and Master Tommy would have it right go wrong that it was to be architecturally improved by a frontdoor like the Martello tower had. But if Master Tommy was headstrong Master Jacky was selfwilled too and, true to the maxim that every little Irishman's house is his castle, he fell upon his hated rival and to such purpose that the wouldbe assailant came to grief and (alas to relate!) the coveted castle too. Needless to say the cries of discomfited Master Tommy drew the attention of the girl friends.
— Come here, Tommy, his sister called imperatively. At once! And you, Jacky, for shame to throw poor Tommy in the dirty sand. Wait till I catch you for that.
His eyes misty
with unshed tears Master Tommy came at her call for their big sister's
word was law with the twins. And in a sad plight he was too after his misadventure. His little man-o'-war top and
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unmentionables were full of sand but Cissy was a past mistress in the art
of smoothing out life's tiny troubles
andº very quickly not one speck of sand
was to be seen on his smart little suit. Still the blue eyes were glistening
with hot tears that
would well up so she shook her hand at Master Jacky the culprit, her eyes dancing in admonition.
— Nasty bold Jacky, she said.
She put her arm round the little mariner and coaxed winningly:
—
What's your name? Butter and cream?
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— Tell us who is your sweetheart, spoke Edy Boardman. Is Cissy your sweetheart?
— Nao, tearful Tommy said.
— Is Edy Boardman your sweetheart? Cissy queried.
— Nao, Tommy said.
— I know, Edy Boardman said none too amiably with an arch glance from her shortsighted eyes. I know who is Tommy's sweetheart.º Gerty is Tommy's sweetheart.
— Nao, Tommy said on the verge of tears.
Cissy's quick motherwit guessed what was amiss and she whispered to Edy Boardman to take him there behind the pushcar where the gentlemanº couldn't see and to mind he didn't wet his new tan shoes.
But who was Gerty?
Gerty MacDowell who was seated near her companions,
lost in thought,
gazing far away into
the distance was
in very
truthº
as fair a specimen
of winsome
Irish girlhood
as one could wish to see. She was
pronounced
beautiful by all who knew her though, as folks often said, she was
more a Giltrap than
a MacDowell. Her figure was slight and graceful, inclining even to fragility
but those iron jelloids she had been taking of late had done her a world of good
and she was much better of those
discharges she
used to get. The
waxen pallor of her
face was almost spiritual in its ivorylike purity. Her hands were of
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finely veined alabaster with
tapering fingers
and as white as lemonjuiceº and queen of
ointments could make them though it was not true that she used to
wear kid gloves in
bed. Bertha Supple told that once to Edy Boardman when she was black out
with Gerty (the girl chums had of course their little tiffs from time to time
like the rest of mortals) and
she told her not
toº
let on whatever she
did that it was her that told her or she'd never speak to her again.
No. Honour where
honour is due. There was anº
innate refinement,
a languid
queenly
hauteur about
Gerty which was unmistakably evidenced in her delicate hands and high arched
instep. Had kind fate but willed her to be born a gentlewoman of high degree
in her own right
and had she only received
the benefit of a
good education Gerty MacDowell might easily have held her own beside any
lady of the land and have seen herself
exquisitely
gowned with
jewels on her brow and
patrician
suitors at her
feet vying with one another to pay their devoirs to
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her. Mayhap it was this,
the love that might
have been, that lent to her softly featured face at times
a look,
tense with
suppressed meaning, that imparted a strange yearning
tendencyº to the beautiful eyes,
a charm few could
resist. Why have
women such eyes of witchery? Gerty's were of the bluest Irish blue, set
off by lustrous
lashes and dark expressive expressive brows.
Time had been when
those brows were not so
silkily
seductiveº. It was Madame Vera Verity,
directress of the
Woman
Beautiful page in the Princess Novelette, who had first advised her to
try eyebrowleine,
which gave that haunting expression to the eyes, so becoming in leaders of
fashion, and she had never regretted it. But Gerty's crowning glory was
her wealth of
hair. It was
dark brown with a natural wave in it.
She had cut it that
very morning on account of the new moon and it
nestled about her
pretty head in a
profusion of luxuriant clusters. And just now at Edy's words as
a telltale flush,
delicate as the faintest rosebloom, crept into her cheeks she looked so lovely in her
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sweet girlish
shyness that of a surety
God's fair land
of Ireland did not hold her equal.
For an instant she was silent with
rather sad
downcast eyes.
She was about to retort but
something checked
the words on her tongue.
Inclination prompted
her to speak out: dignity told her to be silent.
The pretty lips
pouted awhileº but then she glanced
up and broke into
a joyous little
laugh which had in it all the freshness of a young May morning.
She knew right
well, no-one
better, what made squinty Edy say that.
As per usual
somebody's nose
was out of joint about the boy that had the bicycle off the London bridge
road always riding up and down in front of her windows. Only now his father kept
him in inº the evenings studying hard to
get an exhibition in the intermediate that was on and he was going to go to
Trinity college to study for a doctor when he left the high school like his
brother W E Wylie who was racing in the bicycle races of Trinity college
university. Little
recked
he perhaps for
what she felt, that dull ache in her heart sometimes, piercing
to the core. Yet
he was young and
perchance in time he might
learn to love
her. They were protestants in his family and of course Gerty knew
who came first and
after Him the blessed virgin and then saint Joseph. But he was
undeniably
handsome and he looked what he was, every inch a gentleman,
the shape of his head too at the back without his cap on,
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something off the
common and the way he turned the bicycle at her lamp with his hands off the
bars and also the nice perfume of those good cigarettes and besides they were
both of a size too he and she and that was why Edy Boardman thought she was so
frightfully clever because he didn't go and ride up and down in front of her bit of a garden.
Gerty was dressed simply but with instinctive taste for she felt that there
was just a might that he might be out. A neat blouse of electric blue selftinted
by dolly dyes
with a smart vee opening and kerchief pocket (in which she kept always a little
piece of cottonwool
scented with heliotrope) and a navy three quarter skirt cut to the stride
showedº off her slim graceful figure to
perfection. She wore a coquettish wideleaved hat of
nigger straw with
an underbrim of
eggblue
chenille and at
the side a butterfly
bow of silk to
tone. All Tuesday week afternoon she was hunting
to match that
chenille but at last she found what she wanted in Sparrow's summer
bargains, the very it,
slightly
shopsoiled but you would never notice,º
seven fingers two and a penny. She did it up all by herself and tried it on
then,º smiling back at her lovely
reflection in the mirror, and
when she put it on the
waterjug to keep the shape she knew that that would take the shine out of
some people she knew. Her shoes were the newest thing in footwear (Edy Boardman
prided herself that she was very petite but she never had a foot like Gerty
MacDowell, a five,º and never would have,
ash,º oak or elm) with patent toecaps and
just one smart buckle.
Her wellturned ankle
displayed its
proportions
beneath her skirt and just the proper amount and no more of her shapely leg
encased in finespun
hose with
highspliced heels
and wide garter
tops. As for
undies they were
Gerty's chief care and who that knows the fluttering hopes and fears of
sweet seventeen (though Gerty would
never see seventeen
again) can find it in his heart to blame her? She had four dinky sets, three
articles and nighties extra, and each set
slotted with different
coloured ribbons, rosepink, pale blue, mauve and peagreen and she
aired them herself
when they came home from the wash because she wouldn't trust those
washerwomen and aired and ironed herself and
she had a brickbat
too to keep the iron hot on.
She was wearing the
blue for luck, her own colour and
lucky too for a bride
to have a bit of blue somewhere because the
green she wore on
Friday brought grief because his father brought him in to study for the
intermediate exhibition and because she thought perhaps he might be out because
when she was dressing that morning
she nearly slipped
up the old pair on her inside out and that was for
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luck and lovers' meetingº
if you put
those things
on inside out or
if they got untied that he was thinking about you so long as it wasn't of a Friday.
And yet —º and yet. A gnawing
sorrow is there all the time.
Her very soul is in
her eyes and she would
give worlds to
be in her own familiar
chamber where she
could have a good
cry and relieve her
pentup feelings.
The paly light of
evening falls upon a face infinitely sad and wistful. Gerty MacDowell yearns
in vain. Yes, she had known
from the very
first that it was not to be. He was too young to understand.
He would not believe
in love. The night of the party long ago in
Stoer'sº (he was still in short
trousers) when they were alone and
he stole an arm round
her waist she
went white to the
very lips. He called her
little one and
half kissed her
(the first!)
but it was only
the end of her
nose and then he
hastened from the room with a remark about refreshments.
Impetuous
fellow! Strength
of character had never been Reggy Wylie's strong point and he who would
woo and win Gerty
MacDowell must be a man among men. But waiting, always waiting to be asked
and it was leap
year too and would soon be over. No prince charming is her beau ideal
to lay a rare and
wondrous love at her feet but rather a manly man with
a strong quiet
face, perhaps his hair
slightly
flecked with grey,
and who would understand, take her in his
sheltering arms,
strain her to
him in all the
strength of his deep passionate nature and
comfort her with a
long long kiss. For such a one she yearns this balmy summer eve.
With all the heart
of her she longs to be
his only, his
affianced bride for riches for poor in sickness in health till death us two part from this to this day forward.
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And while Edy Boardman was with little Tommy behind the pushcar she was just
thinking would the day ever come when she could call herself
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his little wife
to be. Then they could talk about her, Bertha Supple too and Edy, little
spitfire, because
she would be twentytwo in November. She would care for him with
creature comforts
too for Gerty was womanly wise and knew that a mere man liked that feeling of
homeyness. Her
teacakes and queen
Ann's pudding had
won golden
opinions from all because she had a lucky hand they said also for lighting a
fire, dredge in the fine flour and
always stir in the
same direction, then
cream the milk and
sugar and
whisk well the
white of eggs and they would have a nice drawingroom with pictures and
chintz covers for
the chairs and that silver toastrack in Clery's summer sale like they have
in rich houses. He would be tall
(she had always
admired tall men for a husband) with glistening
white teeth under
his carefully
trimmed sweeping
moustache and
every morning they would both have brekky for their own two selves and before he
went out to business he would give her a good hearty
hug and gaze for a moment deep down into her eyes.
Edy Boardman asked Tommy Caffrey was he done and he said yes so then she
buttoned up his
little knickerbockers for him and told him to run off and play with Jacky
and to be good and not to fight. But Tommy said he wanted the ball and Edy told
him no that baby was playing with the ball and if he took it there'd be
wigs on the green but Tommy said it was his ball and he wanted his ball and he
pranced on the ground, if you please. The temper of him! O, he was
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a man already was little Tommy Caffrey. Edy told him no, no and to be off
now with him and she told Cissy Caffrey not to give in to him.
— You're not my sister, naughty Tommy said. It's my ball.
But Cissy Caffrey told baby Boardman to look up, look up high at her finger and she snatched the ball quickly and threw it along the sand and Tommy after it in full career, having won the day.
— Anything for a quiet life, laughed Ciss.
And she tickled baby Boardman's two cheeks to make him forget and played here's
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the lord mayor, here's his two horses, here's his gingerbread
carriage and here he walks in, chinchopper, chinchopper, chinchopper, chin. But
Edy got as cross as
two sticks about his
getting
hisº
own way like that from everyone always petting him.
— I'd like to give him something, she said, so I would, where I won't say.
— On the beeoteetom, laughed Cissy merrily.
Gerty MacDowell bent down her head at the idea of Cissy saying a thing like that out she'd be ashamed of her life to say, flushing a deep rosy red and Edy Boardman said she was sure the gentleman opposite heard what she said. But not a pin cared Cissy.
— Let him! she said with a pert toss of her head and a piquant tilt of her nose. Give it to him too on the same place quick as I'd look at him.
Madcap Ciss. You had to laugh at her sometimes. For instance when she asked
you would you have some more Chinese tea and
jaspberry ram
and when she drew the jugs too and the men's faces make you split your
sides or when she said she wanted to run and pay a visit to
the miss white.
That was just like
Cissycums. O,
and will you ever forget her the evening she dressed up in her father's
suit and hat and walked down
blank
smoking a cigarette. But she was sincerity itself,
one of the bravest
and truest hearts heaven ever made, a sterling good friend, not one of your
twofaced things too sweet to be wholesome.
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And then there came out upon the air the sound of voices and the pealing anthem of the organ. It was the men's temperance novena conducted by the missioner, the reverend father John Hughes S.J.,º rosary sermon and benediction of the most blessed sacrament. They were there gathered together without distinction of social class (and most edifying was it to see) in that simple fane beside the waves after the storms of this weary world, kneeling humbly at the feet of the immaculate, beseeching her to intercede for them, holy Mary, holy virgin of virgins. How sad to poor Gerty's ears! Had her father only avoided the clutches of the demon drink she might now be rolling in her carriage, second to none. Over and over had she told herself that as she mused by the fireside in a brown study, her eyes on the dying embers, or gazing out of the window by the hour at the rain falling on the rusty bucket. But that vile decoction which has ruined so many hearths and homes had cast its shadow over her girlhood days. Nay, she had even witnessed in the home circle deeds of violence caused by intemperance and had seen her own father, a prey to the fumes of intoxication forget himself completely for if there was one thing of all things that Gerty knew it was thatº the man who lifts his hand to a woman save in the way of kindness, deserves to be branded as the lowest of the low.
And still the voices sang in supplication to the virgin most powerful, virgin most merciful. And Gerty, rapt in thought, scarce saw or heard her companions or the twins at the boyish gambols or the gentleman off Sandymount green that Cissy called the man that was so like himself passing along the strand taking a short walk. You never saw him anyway screwed but still and for all that she would not like him for a father because he was too old or something or on account of his face (it was a palpable case of Doctor Fell) or his carbuncly nose with the pimples on it. Poor father! With all his faults she loved him still when he sang Tell me, Mary, how to woo theeº and they had stewed cockles and lettuce with salad dressing for supper and when he sang the duet The moon hath raised with Mr Dignam that died suddenly and was buried, God have mercy on him, from a stroke. Her mother's birthday that was and Charley was home on his holidays and Tom and Mr Dignam and Mrs and Patsy and Freddy Dignam and they were to have had a group taken. No-one would have thought the end was so nearº. Now he was laid to rest. And her mother said to him to let that be a warning to him for the rest of his days and he couldn't even go to the funeral on account of the gout and she had to go into town to bring him the letters and samples from his office about Catesby's cork lino, artistic designs, fit for a palace, gives tiptop wear and always bright and cheery in the home.
A sterling good daughter was Gerty just like a second mother in the house, a
ministering angel too. And when her mother had those awful headaches who was it
rubbed the menthol cone on her forehead but Gerty though she didn't like
her mother's taking pinches of snuff and that was the only single thing
they ever had words about, taking snuff. It was Gerty who
turned off the gas
every night at the main and it was Gerty
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who tacked up on the wall of
that place Mr
Tunney the grocer's christmas almanac, the picture of halcyon days where a
young gentleman in the dress they used to wear then with a threecornered hat
offered a bunch of flowers to his
lady love with
oldtime chivalry
through the
lattice window.
The colours were done lovely. She was in a
soft clinging
white and the gentleman in chocolate and he looked
a thorough
aristocrat. She often looked at them dreamily when she went there for a
certain purpose and thought about those times because she had found out in
Walker's pronouncing dictionary that
belonged to
grandpapa Giltrapº about the halcyon days what they meant.
The twins were now playing in
the most approved brotherly
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fashion till at last master Jacky, who was really
as bold as brass,
there was no getting behind that, deliberately kicked the ball as hard as ever
he could down towards the seaweedy rocks. Needless to say, poor Tommy was not
slow to voice his dismay but luckily the gentleman in black who was sitting
there by himself came
to the rescue and intercepted the ball. Our two champions claimed their
plaything with lusty cries and to avoid trouble Cissy Caffrey called to the
gentleman to throw it to her please. The gentleman aimed the ball once or twice
and then threw it along the strand towards Cissy Caffrey but it rolled down the
slope and stopped under Gerty's skirt near the little pool beside the rock.
The twins clamoured again for it and Cissy told her to kick it away and let them
fight for it so Gerty drew back her foot but she wished their stupid ball
hadn't come rolling down to her and she gave a
kickº but she missed and Edy and Cissy laughed.
— If you fail try again, Edy Boardman said.
Gerty smiled
assent.º
A delicate pink crept
into her pretty cheeks but she was determined to let them see so she just
lifted her skirt a little and took good aim and gave the ball a
jolly good kick
and it went ever so far and the two twins after it down towards the shingle.
Pure jealousy of course it was, nothing else
to draw
attention on account of the gentleman opposite looking. She felt the warm
flush, a danger
signal always with Gerty MacDowell,
surging and
flaming
into her cheeks.
Till then they had only
exchanged glances of
the most casual but now under the brim of her new hat
she ventured a
look at him and
the face that
met her gaze there in the twilight, wan and
strangely drawn,
seemed to her the saddest she had ever seen.
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Through the open window of the church the fragrant incense was wafted and
with it the fragrant names of her who was conceived without stain of original
sin. Spiritual vessel,
pray for us,
honourable vessel, pray for us, vessel of singular devotion, pray for us,
mystical rose. And careworn hearts were there and toilers for their
daily bread and
many who had erred and wandered, their eyes
wet with
contrition but, for all that, bright with hope for the reverend father
Father Hughes had told them what the great saint Bernard had said in his famous prayer
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of Mary, the most pious virgin's intercessory power that it was not
recorded in any age that those who implored her powerful protection were ever abandoned by her.
The twins were now playing again right merrily for the troubles of childhood are but as passing summer clouds. Cissy Caffrey played with baby Boardman till he crowed with glee, clapping baby hands in air, crying peep behind the hood of the pushcar and Edy asked where was Cissy gone and then Cissy popped up her head and said ah! (O, my! didn't the little chap enjoy that) And then she bade him say papa.
— Say papa, baby. Say pa pa pa pa pa pa pa.
And baby did his level best to say it because he was very intelligent for eleven months everyone said and he would certainly turn out to be something great, they said.
— Ja, ja, ja, ja.
Cissy wiped his little mouth with the dribbling bib and wanted him to sit up properly and say pa, pa, pa. But when she undid the strap she cried out, holy saint Denis, that he was possing wet and to double the half blanket the other way under him. Of course his infant majesty was most obstreperous at such toilet formalities and it was all no use telling him aboutº the geegee and where was the puffpuff but Ciss, alwaysº readywitted gave him in his mouth the teat of the suckingbottle and the young heathen was quickly appeased.
Gerty wished to goodness they would take their baby home out of
that,º no hour to be
out,º and the little brats of twins. She
gazed out towards the distant sea. It was like a picture: the evening and the clouds coming
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out and the Bailey light on Howth
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and to hear the music like that and the perfume they used in the church.
And while she gazed
her heart went
pitapat. Yes, it was her he was looking at, and
there was meaning in
his look. His eyes
burned into her as though they would search her through and through, read
her very soul.
Wonderful eyes
they were, superbly expressive,
but could you trust
them? She could
see at once by his dark eyes
that he was a
foreigner but she could not see whether he had
an aquiline nose
from where he was sitting.
He was in deep
mourning, she could see that, and the story of a haunting sorrow was written on
his face. She would have given worlds to know what it was. He was looking up
so intensely, so still and he saw her kick the ball and perhaps he could see the
bright steel buckles of if she swung them like that thoughtfully. She was glad
that something told her to put on the transparent stockings thinking Reggy Wylie
might be out but that was far away. Here was that of which she had so often
dreamed. The heart
of the girl-woman went out to him. If he had suffered, more sinned against
than sinning, or even, even, if he had been himself a sinner, a wicked man, she
cared not. There were
wounds that wanted
healing and she just yearned to know all, to forgive all if she could make
him fall in love
with her, make him forget the memory of the past. Then mayhap he would embrace
her gently, crushing
her soft body to his, and
love her
for herself alone.
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Refuge of sinners. Comfortress of the afflicted. Ora pro nobis. Well
has it been said that whosoever prays to her with faith and constancy can never
be lost or cast away: and fitly is she too a haven of refuge for the afflicted
because of the seven dolours which transpierced her own heart. Gerty could
picture the whole scene in the church, the stained glass windows lighted up, the
candles, the flowers and the blue banners of the blessed virgin's sodality and father
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Conroy was helping canon O'Hanlon at the altar, carrying things in and
out with his eyes cast down. He looked almost a saint and his confessionbox was
so quiet and clean and dark and his hands were just like white wax. He told her
that time when she told him about that at confession,
crimsoning up to the
roots of her hair for fear he could see, that she was not to be troubled
because that was only the voice of nature and we were all subject to
nature's laws, he said, in this life and that that was no sin because that
came from the nature of woman instituted by God, he said, and that our Blessed
Lady herself said to the archangel Gabriel be it done unto me according to Thy
Word. He was so kind and holy and often and often she thought could she work an
embroidered teacosy for him as a present or a clock but
they had a clock
she noticed on the mantelpiece white and gold with a canary that came out of a
little house to tell the time the day she went there about the flowers for the
forty hours' adoration because it was hard to know what sort of a present
to give or perhaps an album of illuminated views of Dublin or some place.
The little brats of twins began to quarrel again and Jacky threw the ball out towards the sea and they both ran after it. Common as ditchwater the little monkeys. Someone ought to take them and give them a good hiding for themselves to keep them in their places the both of them. And Cissy and Edy shouted after them to come back because they were afraid the tide might come in on them and be drowned.
— Jacky! Tommy!
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Not they! What a great notion they had! So Cissy said it was the very last
time she'd ever bring them out. She jumped up and called them and
thenº she ran down the slope past him,
tossing behind her her hair which had a good enough colour if there had been
more of it but with all the thingamerry she was always rubbing into it she
couldn't get it to grow long because it wasn't natural so she could
just go and throw her hat at it. She ran with long gandery strides it was a
wonder she didn't rip up her skirt at the side that was too tight on her
because there was a lot of the tomboy about Cissy Caffrey whenever she thought
she had a good opportunity to show off and just because she was a good runner
she ran like that so that he could see all the end of her petticoat running and
her skinny shanks up as far as possible. It would have served her just right if
she had tripped up over something with her high French heels on her to make her look tall and
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got a fine tumble. That would have been a very charming exposé for a gentleman like that to witness.
Queen of angels, queen of patriarchs, queen of prophets, of all saints, they
prayed, queen of the most holy rosary and then Father Conroy handed the thurible
to Canon O'Hanlon and he put in the incense and censed the blessed
sacrament and Cissy Caffrey caught the two twins and she was itching to give
them a good clip on the ear but she didn't because she thought he might be
watching but she never made a bigger mistake in all her life because Gerty could
see without looking that he never took his eyes off of her and then Canon
O'Hanlon handed the thurible back to Father Conroy and knelt down looking
up at the blessed sacrament and the choir began to sing Tantum ergo and
she just swung her foot in and out in time to the tantumer gosa cramen
tum. Three and eleven she paid for those stockings in Sparrow's of
George'sº street on the Tuesday, no
the Monday before easter and there wasn't a brack on them and that was what
he was looking at, transparent, and not at her that had neither shape nor form
because he had eyes in his head to see the difference for himself.
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Cissy came up along the strand with the two twins and their ball with her hat anyhow on her on one side after her run and she did look a streel tugging the two kids along with the blouse she bought only a fortnight before like a rag on her back. Gerty just took off her hat for a moment to settle her hair and a a prettier, a daintier head of nutbrown tresses was never seen on a girl's shoulders, —º a radiant little vision, in sooth, almost maddening in its sweetness. You would have to travel many a long mile before you found a head of hair the like of that. She could almost see the swift answering flashº of admiration in his eyes that set her tingling in every nerve. She put on her hat so that she could see from underneath the brim and swung her buckled shoe faster for her breath caught as she read the expression of his eyes. He was eying her as a snakeº eyes its prey. Her woman's instinct told her that she had raised the devil in him and at the thought a burning scarlet swept from throat to brow till the lovely colour of her face became a glorious rose.
Edy Boardman was noticing it too because she was squinting at Gerty, half
smiling, with her specs like an old maid, pretending to hush the baby. Irritable
little gnat she was and always would be and that was why no-one could get on
with her poking her nose into what was no concern of hers. And she said to Gerty:
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— What? laughed Gerty. I was only wondering was it late.
Because she wished they'd take the snottynosed twins and the babby home to the mischief out of that so that was why she just gave a gentle hint about it being late. And when Cissy came up Edy asked her the time and Miss Cissy, as glib as you like, said it was half past kissing time, time to kiss again. But Edy wanted to know because they were told to be in early.
— Wait, said Cissy, I'll askº uncle Peter over there what's the time by his conundrum.
So over she went and when he saw her coming she could see him take his hand
out of his pocket, getting nervous, and beginning to play
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with his watchchain, looking up at the church. Passionate nature though he
was Gerty could see that he had enormous control over himself. One moment he had
been there
fascinated by a
loveliness that made him gaze,º the
passion seething in his veins and
the next moment it
was the quiet gravefaced gentleman, selfcontrol expressed in every line of
his
distinguished
looking figure.
Cissy said to excuse her would he mind please telling her what was the right time and Gerty could see him taking out his watch and listening and looking up and looking at it: and he said he was very sorry his watch was stopped but he thought it must be after eight because the sun was set. His voice had a cultured ring in it and there was a suspicion of a quiver in the mellow tones. Cissy said thanks and came back with her tongue out and said his waterworks were out of order.
Then they sang the second verse of the Tantum ergo and Canon
O'Hanlon got up again and censed the blessed sacrament and knelt down and
he told Father Conroy that one of the candles was just going to set fire to the
flowers and Father Conroy got up and settled it all right and she could see the
gentleman winding his watch and listening to the works. And she swung her leg
more in and out in time. It was getting darker but he could see and he was
looking all the time that he was winding the watch or whatever he was doing to
it and then he put it back. She felt a kind of a sensation rushing all over her
and she knew by the feel of her scalp and that irritation against her stays that
that thing was coming on because the last time was also when she clipped her
hair on account of the moon. His dark eyes fixed themselves on her
again,º drinking in
her every
contour,
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literally
worshipping at her
shrine. If ever there was undisguised admiration in a man's passionate
gaze it was there plain to be seen on that man's face.
It is for you,
Gertrude MacDowell, and you know it.
Edy began to get ready to go and she noticed that little hint she gave
had had the desired
effect because it was a long way along the strand to where there was the
place to push up the pushcar and Cissy took off the twins' caps and combed their
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hair to make herself attractive of course and Canon O'Hanlon stood up
with his cope poking up at his neck and Father Conroy handed him the card to
read off and he read out Panem de coelo praestitisti eis and Edy and
Cissy were talking about the time all the time and asking her but Gerty could
pay them back in their own coin and she just
answeredº with
scathing
politeness when Edy asked her was she
heartbroken
about her best boy throwing her over.
Gerty winced
sharply. A brief
cold blaze shone from her eyes that spoke of
scorn
immeasurable. It
hurt —º
Oº
yes, it cut deep
because Edy had her own quiet way of saying things that she knew would wound
like the
confounded little
cat she was. Gerty's
lips parted
swiftly but she
fought back the
sob that rose to
her throat, so
slim, so
flawless
so beautifully
modelled it
seemed one an artist might have dreamed of.
She had loved him
better than he knew. Lighthearted
deceiver and
fickle like all his sex he would never understand
what he had meant to
her and for an instant there was in the blue eyes
a quick stinging of
tears. Their eyes were
probing her
mercilessly but with a brave effort she sparkled back in sympathy as she
glanced at her new conquest for them to see.
— O, she laughed, and the proud head flashed up. I can throw my cap at who I like because it's leap year.
Her words rang
out crystal clear,
more musical than the
cooing of the ringdove but they
cut the silence
icily. There was
that in her young voice that told that
she was not a one to
be lightly trifled with. Miss Edy's
countenance fell
to no slight
extent and Gerty could see by her
looking as black as
thunder that she was simply in a
towering rage
because that shaft
had struck home and they both knew that she was something
aloof,
apart,º
in another
sphere, that she was
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not of them and never would beº and there
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was somebody else too that knew it and saw it so they could put that in their pipe and smoke it.
Edy straightened up baby Boardman to get ready to go and Cissy tucked in the ball and the spades and buckets and it was high time too because the sandman was on his way for master Boardman junior. And Cissy Caffrey told him too that billy winks was coming and that baby was to go deedaw and baby looked just too ducky, laughing up out of his gleeful eyes and Cissy poked him like that out of fun in his wee fat tummy and baby, without as much as by your leave, sent up his compliments to all and sundryº on to his brand new dribbling bib.
— O my! puddeny pie! protested Ciss.
The slight contretemps claimed her attention but in two two she set that little matter to rights.
Gerty stifled a smothered exclamation and Edy asked what and she was just going to tell her to catch it while it was flying but she was ever ladylike in her deportment so she simply passed it off by saying that that was the benediction because just then the bell rang out from the steeple over the quiet seashore because Canon O'Hanlon was up on the altar with the veil that Father Conroy put round him round his shoulders giving them the benediction with the blessed sacrament in his hands.
How moving the scene there in the gathering twilight, the last glimpse of
Erin, the touching chime of those evening bells and at the same time a bat flew
forth from theº ivied belfry through the
dusk, hither, thither, with a tiny lost cry. And she could see far away the
lights of the lighthouses and soon the lamplighter would be going his rounds
lighting the
lamp near her
window where Reggy Wylie used to turn the bicycle like she read in that book
The Lamplighter by Miss Cummins author of Mabel Vaughan and other
tales. For Gerty had
her dreams that
no-one knew of. She loved to read poetry and, when she got a keepsake from Bertha Supple of that lovely confession
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album with the
coralpink cover to
write her thoughts in she laid it in the drawer of her toilet-table,
which,º though it
did not err on the
side of luxury, was
scrupulously neat and
clean. It was there she kept her girlish
treasureº
trove, the tortoiseshell combs, her
child of Mary
badge, the whiterose scent, the eyebrowline, her alabaster
pouncetbox and the
ribbons to change when her things came home from the wash and there were some
beautiful thoughts written in it in violet ink that she bought in Wisdom Hely's
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for she felt that she too could write poetry if she could only express
herself like that
poetry
she had copied
out of the newspaper she found one evening round the
potherbs.º
Art thou real, my
ideal? it was called by Louis J Walsh, Magherafelt, and after there was
something about twilight, wilt thou ever? and often the beauty of poetry,
so sad in its transient loveliness had
misted her eyes
with silent tears for she felt that
the years were
slipping by for her, one by one, and but for that one
shortcoming she
knew she need fear no comparisons and that was accident coming down the hill and
she always tried to conceal it. But it must
end,º she felt. If she saw
that magic lure in
his eyes there
would be no holding back for her.
Love laughs at
locksmiths. She
would make the great sacrifice.
Dearer than the
whole world would she be to him
and gild his days
with happiness. There was the
all important
question and she was
dying to know
was he a married man or a widower who had
lost his wife or
some tragedy like the nobleman with the foreign name from
the land of song
had to have her put into a madhouse,
cruel only to be
kind. But even if
— what then?
Would it make a very
great difference. From everything in the least indelicate her finebred
nature
instinctively
recoiled. She
loathed that sort of
person, the
fallen women off
the accomodation walk
beside the Dodder
that went with the soldiers and
coarse
menº, degrading the sex and being taken
up to the police station.
No, no: not that.
They would be just good friends in spite of the
conventions of
society with a big
ess. Perhaps it was
an old flame he
was in mourning for from the days beyond recall.
She thought she
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understood. She would try to understand him because men were so
different. The old
love was waiting, waiting with little white hands stretched out, with blue
appealing eyes. She would follow the dictates of her heart for love was the
master guide.
Nothing else
mattered. Come what might she would be
wild, untrammelled, free.
Canon O'Hanlon put the blessed sacrament back into the tabernacle and the choir sang Laudate Dominum omnes gentes and then he locked the tabernacle door because the benediction was over and Father Conroy handed him his hat to put on and Edy asked was she coming but Jacky Caffrey called out:
— O, look, Cissy!
And they all looked
was it sheet
lightning but Tommy saw it too over the trees beside the church, blue and then green and purple.
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— It's fireworks, Cissy Caffrey said.
And they all ran down the strand to see over the houses and the church, helterskelter, Edy with the pushcar with baby Boardman in it and Cissy holding Tommy and Jacky by the hand so they wouldn't fall, running.
— Come on, Gerty, Cissy called. It's the bazaar fireworks.
But Gerty was
adamant. She had
no intention of being
at their beck and
call. If they could run like rossies she could sit so she said she could see
from where she was. The eyes that were fastened upon her set her
pulses tingling.
She looked at him a moment,
meeting his
glance, and a
light broke in upon her.
Whitehot passion
was in that face, passion
silent as the
grave and it had
made her his.
At last they were
left alone without the others to pry and pass remarks and she knew he could
be trusted to the death,
steadfast,
a man of
principle to his
fingertips. She leaned back far to see up where the
fireworks were
and she caught her knee in her hands so as not to fall back, looking up, and
there was no-one to see only him and her when she
revealed all her
graceful beautifully shaped legs like that, supply
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soft and delicately rounded, and she seemed to hear the panting of his
heart,º
his hoarse
breathing, because she knew too about the passion of men like that,
hotblooded because Bertha Supple told her once in secret about the gentleman
lodger that was staying with them out of the record office that had pictures cut
out of papers of
skirtdancers and she said he used to do something not very nice that you
could imagine sometimes in the bed. But this was different from a thing like
that because there was all the difference because she could almost feel him
draw her face to
his and the first
quick hot touch of his
handsome lips. Besides there was absolution so long as you didn't do
the other thing before being married and there ought to be women priests that
would understand without telling out and Cissy Caffrey too sometimes had that
dreamy kind of
dreamy look in her
eyes so that she too, my dear, and besides it was on account of that other thing coming on the way it did.
And Jacky Caffrey shouted to look, there was another and she leaned back and
the garters were blue to match on account of the contrast with the transparent
and they all saw it and they all shouted to look,
look,º there it was and she leaned back
ever so far to see the
fireworks and
something queer was flying through the air, a soft
thing,º to and fro, dark. And she saw a long Roman candle going up over
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the trees, up, up, and they were all breathless with excitement as it went
higher and higher and she had to lean back more and more to look up after it,
high, high, almost out of sight, and her face was suffused with
a divine, an
entrancing blush from straining back and he could see her other things too,
nainsook knickers,
four and eleven, on account of being white and she let him and she saw that he
saw and then it went so high it went out of sight a moment and she was trembling
in every limb from being bent so far back that he could see high up above her
knee where no-one ever and she wasn't ashamed to look in that immodest
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way like that because he couldn't resist the sight like those
skirtdancers behaving so immodest before men looking and he wasn't either,
looking, looking. She would fain have cried to him
chokingly, held
out her
snowy
slender arms to
him to come, to feel
his lips laid on her
white brow. O! And then suddenly it burst and it was like a sigh of O! and
everybody cried O! O! and it shot out of it a stream of rain gold hair threads
and they burst and ah! they were all greeny dewy stars falling with golden, O so lovely, O, soft, sweet, soft!
Then all melted away dewily in the grey air: all was silent. Ah! She glanced at him as she bent forward quickly, a glance of piteous protest, of shy reproach under which he coloured like a girl. He was leaning back against the rock behind. Leopold Bloom (for it is he) stands silentº with bowed head before those young guileless eyes. What a brute he had been! At it again? A fair unsullied soul had called and, wretch that he was, how had he answered? What an utter cad he had been!º But there was an infinite store of mercy in those eyes, for him too a word of pardon even though he had erred and sinned and wandered. That was their secret, only theirs, alone in the hiding twilight and there was none to know save the little bat that flew so softly through the evening to and fro and little bats don't tell.
Cissy Caffrey whistled and she called:º
— Gerty! Gerty! We're going. Come on. We can see from farther up.
Gerty had an idea. She took the wadding from her
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kerchief pocket and waved in gay reply of course without letting him and
then put it back. Wonder if he's too far to. She rose. She had to go but
they would meet again, there, and she would dream of it till then, till they met
tomorrow. She drew
herself up to her full height. Their
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souls met in a last lingering glance and the
eyes that reached her
heart, full of a
strange shining,
hung enraptured
on her sweet
flowerlike face. She half smiled at him, a sweet forgiving smile —
and then they
parted. Slowly, without looking back she went down the uneven strand to
Cissy, to Edy, to Jacky and Tommy Caffrey, to little baby Boardman. It was
darker now and there were stones and bits of wood on the strand and slippy
seaweed. She walked with a certain quiet dignity but with care and slowly
because —º because Gerty MacDowell was …
Tight boots. No! She' lame. O!
Mr Bloom watched her as she limped away. Poor girl! That's why
she's left on the shelf and the others did a sprint.
Thought something
was wrong by the
cut of her jib.
Jilted beauty. Glad I didn't know it when she was on show. Hot little devil
all the same. Near her monthlies, I expect makes them feel ticklish. I have such
a bad headache. Where did I put the letter. Yes, all right. All kinds of crazy
longings. Girl in Tranquilla convent nun told me
liked
paraffin
oil. Sister?
That's the moon. But then why don't all women menstruate at the same
time with theº same moon. I mean. Depends
on the time they were born I suppose. Anyhow I got the best of that. Made up for
the tramdriver this morning. That gouger M'Coy stopping him to say nothing.
Thankful for small mercies. Cheap too.
Yours for the
asking. Pity
they can't see themselves. A dream of
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wellfilled hose. Where was that? Ah, yes.
Mutoscope picture:
for men only. Peeping Tom. Do they snapshot those girls or is it imagination of
some fellow? Lingerie
does it. Felt for the curves inside her deshabille.
Excites themselves
when they're.
Molly too. Why I
bought her the violet garters.
Say a woman loses a
charm with every pin she takes out.
Pinned together.
O, Mairy lost the pin of her. Dressed up to the nines for somebody.
In no hurry either.
Always off to a fellow when they are. Out on spec probably. They believe in
chance because like themselves. And the others inclined to give her an odd dig.
Mary and Martha. Girl friends at school, arms round each other's necks,
kissing and whispering secretsº about
nothing in the convent garden.
Nuns with
whitewashed faces, cool coifsº
and their rosaries
going up and down,
vindictive too
for what they can't get. Barbed wire. Be sure now and write to me. And
I'll write to you. Now won't you? Molly and Josie Powell. Then meet
once in a blue moon.
Tableau. Look
who it is for the
love of God! How are you at all?
What have you been
doing with yourself? Kiss and delighted to, kiss, to see you. Picking holes
in each other's appearance. You're looking splendid. Wouldn't lend each other a pinch of salt.
Ah.
Devils they are when that's coming on them.
Molly often told me
feel things a ton weight. Scratch the sole of my foot. O that way! O,
that's exquisite! Feel it myself too. Good to rest once in a way.
Wonder if it's bad to go with them then.
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Safe in a way. Something about withering plants I read in a garden. Besides
they say if the flower withers she wears she's a flirt. All are. Daresay
she felt I. When you feel like that you often meet what you feel. Liked me or
what? Dress they look at.
Always know a fellow
courting: collars and cuffs.
Same time might prefer
a tie undone or something. Trousers? Suppose I when I was? No. Gently does it.
Dislike rough and tumble. Kiss in the dark and never tell. Saw something in
me. Wonder why.
Sooner have me as I am than some poet
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with
bearsgrease
plastery hair,
lovelock over his
dexter optic. To aid gentleman in literary.
Ought to attend to
my appearance this age.
Didn't let her
see me in profile. Still, you never know.
Pretty girls and ugly
men marrying. Beauty and the beast. Besides I can't be so if Molly.
Took off her hat to show her hair.
Wide brim. Bought to
hide her face, meeting someone might know her, bend down, or carry a bunch of
flowers. Hair
smells in rut.
Ten bob I got for
Molly's combings when we were
on the rocks in
Holles street. Why not? Suppose he gave her money? Why not? All a prejudice.
She's worth ten shillings, more fifteen, a pound.
Bold hand: Mrs
Marion. Did I forget
to write address on that letter like the postcard I sent Flynn. And
the day I went to
Drimmie's without a necktie. Wrangle with Molly it was put me off. No,
I remember. Richie Goulding: he's another. Weighs on his mind.
Funny my watch stopped
at half past four. Was that just when he, she?
O, he did! Into her. She did! Done.
Ah.
Mr Bloom with careful hand recomposed
his wet shirt. O
Lord, that little limping devil. Begins to feel cold and clammy. After effect
not pleasant. They don't care. Complimented perhaps. Go home now and say
night prayers with the
kiddies. Well, aren't they?º
Still, I feel. The
strength it gives a man. That's the secret of it.
Good job I let off
then behind the wall coming out of Dignam's. Cider that was. Otherwise I
couldn't have.
Makes you want to sing
after. Suppose I
spoke to her. What about? Bad plan however
ifº
you don't know
how to end the conversation.
Ask them a question
they ask you another.
Good plan
if you're
stuck. Then you're in a cart.
Wonderful of course
if you say: good evening, and
you see she's on
for it: good
evening. Girl in Meath street that night. All the dirty things I made her
say. Wish she hadn't called me sir. O, her mouth in the dark!
French letter still in
my pocketbook. But might happen sometime, I don't think. Come in, all
is prepared. I
dreamt. What? Worst is beginning. How they change the venue when it's
not what they want. Ask you do you like mushrooms because they knew a gentleman
once who. Yet if I
went the whole
hog, say: I want to, something like that. Because I did. She too.
Offend her, then
make it up.
Pretend to want
something awfully. Then cry off for her sake. Flatters them.
She must have been
thinking of someone else all the time.
What harm? Must
since she came to the use of reason, he, he and he.
First kiss does the
trick. Something
inside them goes pop. Mushy like, tell by their eye,
on the sly.
First thoughts are
best. Remember that till their dying day. Molly, lieutenant Mulvey that kissed her under the
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Moorish wall beside the gardens. Fifteen she told me. But her breasts were
developed. Fell asleep then. After Glencree dinner that was when we drove home.
Featherbed mountain.
Gnashing her teeth
in sleep. Lord mayor had his eye on her too. Val Dillon. Apoplectic.
There she is with them down there for the fireworks. My fireworks. Up like a rocket and down like a stick. And the children, twins they must be, waiting for something to happen. Want to be grownups. Dressing in mother's clothes. Time enough, understand all the ways of the world. And the dark one with the mop head and the nigger mouth. I knew she could whistle. Mouth made for that. Why some whores wear veils to their noses. Would you mind, please, telling me the right time? I'll tell you the time in a lane. Say prunes and prisms forty times every morning, cure for fat lips. Caressing the little boy too. Onlookers see most of the game. Of course they understand birds, animal, babies. In their line.
Didn't look back when she was going down the strand. Wouldn't give
that satisfaction.
Those girls, those
girls, those lovely seaside.
Fine eyes she had,
clear. It's the white of the eye brings that out not so much the pupil.
Did she know what I? Course.
Like a cat sitting
beyond a dog's jump. Woman.
Neverº meet one
like that Wilkins in
the high school drawing a picture of Venus with all her belongings on show. Call
that innocence. Poor idiot! His wife
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has her work cut out for her. Sharp as needles they are.
When I said to
Molly the man at
the corner of Cuffe street
was goodlooking,
thought she might like, twigged at once he had a false arm. Had, too. Where
do they get that? Handed down from father
to,º mother to daughter, I mean.
Bred in the bone.
Milly, for example, drying her handkerchief on the mirror to save the
ironing. And when I sent for Molly's Paisley shawl to
Prescott'sº, by the way that ad I
must, carrying home
the change in her stocking! Clever little minx. I never told her.
Neat way she carries
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parcels too. Attract men, small thing like that.
Holding up her hand,
shaking it, to let the blood flow back when it was red. Who did you learn
that from? Nobody. Something the nurse taught me. O, don't they know? Five
years old she was in front of Molly's dressing table, just before we left
Lombard street west.
Me have a nice
pace.º Mullingar. Who knows? Ways
of the world. Young student.
Straight on her
pins anyhow not like the other. Still she was game. Lord, I am wet. Devil
you are. Swell of
her calf. Transparent stockings,
stretched to
breaking point. Not like that frump today. A.E.
Rumpled stockings.
Or the one in Grafton street.
White. Wow! Beef to the heel.
A monkey puzzle rocket burst, spluttering in darting crackles. Zrads and zrads, zrads, zrads. And Cissy and Tommy and Jackyº ran out to see and Edy after with the pushcar and then Gerty beyond the curve of the rocks. Will she? Watch! Watch! See! Looked round. She smelt an onion. Darling, I saw, your. I saw all.
Lord!
Did me good all the same.
Off colour after
Kiernan's, Dignam's. For this relief much thanks. In Hamlet,
that is. Lord! It was all things combined. Excitement.
When she leaned back,
felt an ache at the butt of my tongue. Your head it simply. He's right.
Might have made a worse fool of myself. Instead of talking about nothing. Then I
will tell you all.
Still it was a kind of
language between us. It couldn't be? No. Gerty they called her. Might
be false name however like mineº and the
address Dolphin's barn a blind. Her maiden name was Jemima Brown and she lived with her mother in Irishtown.
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Place made me think of that, I suppose.
All tarred with the
same brush. Wiping
pens in their stockings. But the ball rolled down to her as if it
understood. Every
bullet has its billet.
Course I never could
throw anything straight at school.
Crooked as a
ram's horn. Sad however because it lasts only a few years till they
settle down to pot walloping and
fuller'sº
earth for the baby
when he does
ah ah. No
soft job. Saves them. Keeps them
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out of harm's way. Nature. Washing child, washing corpse. Dignam.
Children's hands always round them.
Cocoanut skulls,
monkeys, not even closed at first,
sour milk in their
swaddles and
tainted curds.
Oughtn't to have
given that child an empty teat to suck. Fill it up with wind. Mrs Beaufoy,
Purefoy. Must call to the hospital. Wonder is nurse Callan there still. And Mrs
Breen and Mrs Dignam once like that too, marriageable. Worst of all the night
Mrs Duggan told me in the City Arms.
Husband rolling in
drunk, stink of
pub off him like a polecat.
Have that in your
nose all night, whiff of stale boose.
Bad policy however
to fault the husband. They stick by one another. Maybe the women's fault
also.
That's where
Molly can knock
spots off them.
It's the blood
of the south. Moorish. Also the form, the figure. Hands felt for the opulent.
Just compare, for instance, those others. Wife locked up at home, skeleton in
the cupboard. Allow me to introduce my. Then they trot you out some kind of
a nondescript,
wouldn't know what to call her always see a fellow's weak point in his
wife. Still, there's destiny in it: falling in love.
Have their own secrets
between them. Chaps that would go the dogs if some woman didn't take
them in hand. Then
little chits
of girls, height of a shilling in coppers,
with little hubbies.
As God made them he matched them. Sometimes children turn out well enough.
Twice nought makes one. This wet is very unpleasant.
Ow!
Other hand a sixfooter with
a wifey up to his
watchpocket. Long and the short of it. Very strange about my watch. Wonder
is there any magnetic influence between the person because that was about the
time he. Yes, I suppose,º at once.
Cat's away, the mice will play. I remember looking in Pill lane. Also that now is magnetism.
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At the back of everything,
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magnetism, attracting something.
Earth, for instance,
pulling this and being pulled. That causes movement.
And time, well
that's the time the movement takes.
Then if one thing
stopped the whole ghesabo would stop bit by bit. Because it's all
arranged. Magnetic
needle tells you what's going on in the sun, the stars.
Little piece of
steel iron. When you hold out the fork. Come. Come.
Tip. Woman and man,
that is. Fork and steel. Molly, he. Dress up and look and suggest and let
you see and see more and defy you if you're a man to see that and legs,
look, look and. Tip. Have to let fly. Wonder how is she feeling in that region.
Shame all put on
before third person.
Molly, her underjaw
stuck out, head back about the farmer in the ridingboots with the spurs. And
when the painters
were in Lombard street west. Smell that I did. Like flowers. It was too.
Violets. Came from
the turpentine probably in the paint. Make their own of everything.
Same time doing it
scraped her slipper on the floor so they wouldn't hear. But lots of
them can't kick the beam, I think. Keep that thing up for hours. Kind of a
general all round over me and half down my back.
Wait. Hm. Hm. Yes. That's her perfume. Why she waved her hand. I leave
you this to think of me when I'm far away on the pillow. What is it?
Heliotrope? No.º Hyacinth? Hm. Roses, I
think. She'd like scent of that kind. Sweet and cheap: soon sour. Why Molly
likes opoponax. Suits her, with a little jessamine mixed. Her high notes and her
low notes. At the
dance night she met him, dance of the hours.
Heat brought it
out. She was wearing her black and it had the perfume of the last time. Good
conductor, is it? Or bad?
Light too. Suppose
there's some connection. For instance if you go into a cellar where
it's dark. Mysterious thing too.
Why did I smell it
only now? Took its time like herself. Slow but sure.
Suppose it's ever
so many millions of tiny grains blown across. Yes, it is. Because those
spice islands, Cinghalese this morning,
smell them leagues
off. Tell you what it is. It's like a fine fine veil or web they have
over the skin, fine like what do you call it gossamer and
they'reº always spinning it out
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of them, fine as anything,
rainbow colours
without knowing it.
Clings to everything
she takes off.
Vamp of her
stockings. Warm shoe. Stays.
Drawers. Little kick
taking them off. By by till next time. Also
the cat likes to sniff
in her shift on the bed. Know her smell in a thousand.
Bathwater too.
Reminds me of
strawberries and
cream. Wonder where it is really? There or
the armpits or under the neck. Because
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you get it out of all holes and corners.
Hyacinth perfume
made of oil of ether or something.
Muskrat. Bag
under their tails. Dogs at each other, behind. Good evening. Good evening. How
do you sniff? Hm. Hm. Very well, thank you. Animals go by that. Yes now, look at
it that way. We're the same. Some women, instance, warn you off when they
have that. Come near. Then get
a hogo you could
hang your hat on. Like what? Potted herrings gone stale or. Boof! Please keep off the grass.
Perhaps they get a man smell off us. What though? Cigary gloves long John had on his desk the other day. Breath? What you eat and drink gives that. No. Mansmell, I mean. Must be connected with that because priests that are supposed to are different. Women run round that like flies round treacle. O, father, will you? Let me be the first to. That diffuses itself all through the body, permeates. Source of life. Andº it's extremely curious the smell. Let me.
Mr Bloom inserted his nose. Hm. Into the. Hm. Opening of his waistcoat. Almonds? Or no, lemons is it? Ah no, that's the soap.
O by the by that lotion. I knew there was something on my mind. I never went back and the soap not paid. Two and nine bad opinion of me he'll have. Call tomorrow. How much do I owe you? Three and nine? Two and nine, sir. Ah. Might stop him giving credit. Lose your customers that ways. Pubs do. Fellows run up a bill on the slate and then slinking around the back streets in to some other place.
Here's this man passed before.
Blown in from the bay. Just
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went as far as turn back.
Always at home at
dinnertime.
Looks mangled out:
had a good tuck in. Enjoying nature now.
Grace after
meals. After
supper walk a mile. Sure he has a small bank balance somewhere,
government sit.
Walk after him now
make him awkward like those newsboys me today. That's the way to find
out. Ask yourself
who is he now. The Man on the Beach. Prize
Story by Mr
Leopold Bloom. Payment at the rate of one guinea per column. And that fellow
today at the graveside in the
mackintosh.
Corns on his
kismet however.
Healthy perhaps
absorb all the.
Whistle brings rain
they say. Must be some somewhere. Salt in the
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Ormond damp. The body feels the atmosphere.
Old Betty's
joints are on the rack. Mother Shipton's prophecy that is about ships
round the world in the twinkling. No, signs of rain it is. The royal reader. And distant hills seem coming nigh.
Howth. Bailey light. Two, four, six, eight, nine. See. People afraid of the dark. Also glowworms, cyclists: lighting upº time. Jewels too, diamonds, flash better. Women. Light is a kind of reassuring. Not going to hurt you. Better now of course than long ago. Country roads. Run you through the small guts for nothing. Still two types there are you bob against. Excuse me. Scowl or smile. Not at all. Best time to spray flowers too in the shade after the sun. Were those nightclouds there all the time? Land of the setting sun this. Homerule sun setting in the northeast. My native land, goodnight.
Dew falling. Bad for you, dear, to sit on that stone. Brings on white fluxions. Might get piles myself. Sticks too like a summer cold, sore on the mouth. Friction of the position. Like to be that rock she sat on. Also the library today: those girl graduates: happy chairs under them. But it's the evening influence. They feel allº that. Open like flowers too, know their hours, Jerusalem artichokes, sunflowers, in ballrooms, avenues under the lamps. Nightstock in Mat Dillon's garden where I kissed her shoulder. June that was too. I wooed. And now. The year returns. Sad about her lame of course but must be on your guard not to feel too much pity. They take advantage.
All quiet on Howth now. The distant hills seem. Where we. The rhododendrons. I am a fool perhaps. He gets the plums and I the leavings. All that old hill has seen. Names change. That's all. Lovers. Yum yum.
Tired I feel now. Drained all the manhood out of me, little wretch. She
kissed me. Never again. My youth. Only once it comes.
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Or hers. Take the train there tomorrow. No. Returning not the same.
Like kids your
second visit to a house. The new I want. Is there any? Care of P.O.
Dolphin's
barn. Are you not happy in your? Naughty darling. At Dolphin's barn
charades in Luke Doyle's house. Mat Dillon and his bevy of daughters were
there, Tiny, Atty, Floey, Sara. Molly too. Eightyseven that was. Year before we.
And the old major, partial to his drop of spirits. Curious she an only child, I
an only child. Now it returns.
Dolphin's
barn. Think
you're escaping and run into yourself. Longest way round is the
shortest way home. And just when she and he.
Circus horse walking
in a ring. Rip van Winkle we played. Rip: tear in Henny Doyle's
overcoat. Van: breadvan delivering. Winkle: cockles and periwinkles. Then I did
Rip van Winkle coming back. She leaned on the sideboard watching. Moorish eyes.
Twenty years asleep. All changed. Forgotten. The young are old now. His gun
rusty from the dewº.
Ba. What is that flying about? Swallow? Bat probably.
Thinks I'm
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a tree, so blind. Metempsychosis. They believed you could be changed
into one from grief.
Weeping willow.
Ba. There he goes. Funny little beggar. Wonder where he lives.
Belfry up there Very
likely. Hanging by the heels in the
odour of
sanctity. Bell scared him out, I suppose. Mass seems to be over. Yes,
there's the light in the priest's house. Their
frugal meal.
Remember about the mistake in the valuation when I was in Thom's.
Twentyeightº it is. Two houses they have.
Gabriel Conroy's brother is curate. Ba. Again.
Wonder why they come
out at night like mice. They're a mixed breed.
Birds are like hopping
mice. What
frightens them, light or noise? Better sit still.
All instinct like the
bird in drouth got water out of the end of a jar by throwing in pebbles.
Like a little
man in a cloak he is with
tiny hands.
Weeny bones. Almost
see them shimmering, kind of a bluey white. Colours depend on the light you
see. Instance, that
cat this morning on
the staircase colour of brown turf. Howth a while ago amethyst. Glass
flashing. That's
how that wise man what's his name with the
burning glass.
Then the heather goes
on fire. It can't be tourists' matches. What? Perhaps the sticks dry rub together in the
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wind and light.
Ba. Who knows what
they're always flying for. Insects, birds? That bee last week got into the
room playing with his shadow on the ceiling. Birds too. Never find out. Or
what they say. Like our small talk.
And says he and says
she. Nerve they have to fly over the ocean and back.
Lots must be killed in
storms, telegraph wires. Dreadful life sailors have too. Big brutes of
steamers floundering along in the dark,
lowing out like seacows. Faugh a ballagh!
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Out of that, bloody curse to you! Other, in vessels, bit of a handkerchief
sail, pitched about like snuff at a wake when the stormy winds do blow. Married
too. Sometimes away for years at the
ends of the earth
somewhere. No ends really because it's round.
Wife in every port
they say. She has a good job if she minds it till Johnny comes marching home
again. If ever he does. Smelling the tail
endº of ports. How can they like the sea?
Yet they do. The anchor's weighed. Off he sails with a scapular or a medal
on him for luck. Well.
And the tephilim
poor papa's
father had on his door to touch. That brought us out of the land of Egypt
and into the house of bondage.
Something in all
those superstitions because when you go out never know what dangers. Hanging
on to a plank for grim life, lifebelt
roundº him, gulping salt water, and
that's the last of his nibs till the sharks catch hold of him
Do fish get seasick?
Then you have a beautiful calm without a cloud, smooth sea, placid, crew and cargo in smithereens, Davy Jones' locker, moon looking down so peaceful. Not my fault, old cockalorum.
A lost long candle wandered up the sky from Mirus bazaar in aid of funds for
Mercer's hospital and broke, drooping, and shed a cluster of violet but one
white stars. They floated, fell: they faded. And among the elms
a hoisted lintstock
lit the lamp at Leahy's terrace. By the screens of lighted windows, by
equal gardens a shrill voice went crying, wailing: Evening Telegraph, extra
edition. Result of the Gold Cup races: and from the door of Dignam's house
a boy ran out and called. Twittering the bat flew here, flew there. Far out over
the sands the coming surf crept, grey. Howth settled for
slumber,º tired of long days, of yumyum rhododendrons (he was old) and felt
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gladly the night breeze ruffle his many ferns. He lay but opened a red eye
unsleeping, deep and slowly breathing, slumberous but awake. And far on
Kish bank the
anchored lightship twinkled, winked at Mr Bloom.
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Life those chaps out there must have, stuck in the same spot. Irish Lights board. Penance for their sins. Day we went out in the Erin's Kingº, throwing them the sack of old papers. Bears in the zoo. Filthy trip. Drunkards out to shake up their livers. Puking overboard to feed the herrings. And the women, fear of God in their faces. Milly, no sign of funk. Her blue scarf loose, laughing. Don't know what death is at that age. And then their stomachs clean. But being lost they fear. When we hid behind the tree at Crumlin. I didn't want to. Mamma! Mamma! Frightening them with masks too. Poor kids! Only troubles wildfire and nettlerash. Calomel purge I got for that. After getting better, asleep with Molly. Very same teeth she has. What do they love? Another themselves? But the morning she chased her with the umbrella. Perhaps so as not to hurt. I felt her pulse. Ticking. Little hand it was: now big. Dearest Papli. All that the hand says when you touch. Loved to count my waistcoat buttons. Her first stays I remember. Made me laugh to see. Little paps to begin with. Left one is more sensitive, I think. Mine too. Nearer the heart? Her growing pains at night, calling, wakening me. Frightened she was when that, her nature, came on her first. Poor child! Strange moment for the mother too! Brings back her girlhood. Gibraltar. Looking from Buena Vista. O'Hara's tower. The seabirds screaming. Old barbary ape that gobbled all his family. Sundown, gunfire, for the men to cross the lines. Looking out over the sea she told me. Evening like this, but clear, no clouds. I always thought I'd marry a lord or a gentleman coming with a private yacht. Bueñas noches, señorita. El hombre ama la muchacha hormosa. Why me? Because you looked so foreign from the others.
Better not stick here all night like an
oyster.
This weather makes you
dull. Must be getting on for nine by the light. Go home. Too late for
Leah.º Lily of Killarney.
No. Might be still up. Call to the hospital
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to see. Hope she's over. Long day I've had. Martha, the bath,
funeral, house of Keyesº, museum with
those goddesses, Dedalus' song. Then that bawler in Barney Kiernan's.
Got my own back there. Drunken ranters. Ought to go home and laugh at
themselves. Always want to be swilling in company. Afraid to be alone like a
child of two. Suppose he hit me.º
Look at it other way
round. Not so bad then. Perhaps not to hurt he meant. Three cheers for
Israel. Three cheers for the sister-in-law he hawked about, three fangs in her
mouth. An extremely nice cup of tea. Imagine that in the early morning. Every
one to his taste as Maurice said when he kissed the cow. But Dignam's put
the boots on it. Houses of mourning so depressing because you never know. Anyhow
she wants the money. Must call to theº
Scottish Widowsº as I promised. Strange
name. Takes it for granted we're going to pop off first. That widow on
Monday was itº outside Cramer's that
looked at me. Buried
the poor husband but progressing favourably. Well? What do you expect her to
do? Must wheedle her way along.
Widower I hate
to see. Looks so forlorn.
Poor man
O'Connor wife and five children poisoned by mussels here. The
sewage. Hopeless.
Some good motherly woman take him in tow, platter face and a large apron. See
him sometimes walking about, trying to find out who played the trick. U. p: up.
Fate that is. He, not me. Also a shop often noticed. Curse seems to dog it.
Dreamt last night?
Wait. Something confused. She had red slippers on. Turkish. Wore the
breeches. Suppose she does?
Would I like her in
pyjamas. Damned hard to answer. Nannetti's gone. Mailboat. Near
Holyhead by now. Must nail that ad of Keyes's. Work Hynes and Crawford.
Petticoats for Molly. She has something to put in them. What's that? Might be money.
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Mr Bloom stooped and turned over a piece of paper on the sand. He brought it near his eyes and peered. Letter? No. Can't read. Better go. Better. I'm tired to move. Page of an old copybook. Never know what you find. Bottle with story of a treasure in it, thrown from a wreck. Parcels post. Children always want to throw things in the sea. Trust? Bread cast on the waters. What's this? Bit of stick.
O! Exhausted that little female has me. Will she come here tomorrow? Will I?
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Mr Bloom with his stick gently vexed the thick sand near his foot. Write a message here for her. Might remain. What?
I.
Some flatfoot tramp on it in the morning. Useless. Tide comes here. Saw a pool near her shoes. O, those transparent! Besides they don't know. What is the meaning of that other world. I called you naughty darling because I do not like.
AM. A.
No room. Let it go.
Mr Bloom effaced the letters with his slow boot. Hopeless thing sand. Nothing grows in it. All fades. No fear of big vessels coming up here. Except Guinness's barges. Round the Kish in eighty days. Done half by design.
He flung his wooden pen away. The stick fell in silted sand, stuck. Now, if you were trying to do that for a week on end you couldn't. Chance? We'll never meet again. But it was lovely. Goodbye, dear. Made me fear so young.
Short snooze now if I had. And he can do the other. Did too. And Belfast. I
won't go. Let him. Just close my eyes a moment. Won't sleep, though. Bat again. No harm in him. Just a few.
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O sweety. All your little white up I saw. Dirty girl. Made me do love sticky. we two naughty darling she him half past the bed met him pike hose frillies for Raoul de perfume your wife black hair heave under embon señorita young eyes breasts plump me breadvan Winkle red slippers she rusty sleep wanderº years of dreams return tail end Agendath, sweety showed me her, next year in, drawers, return, next in, her, next, her, next.
A bat flew. Here. There. Here. Far in the grey a bell chimed. Mr Bloom with open mouth, his left boot sanded sideways, leaned and breathed. Just for a few …
The clock on
the mantelpiece in the priest's house cooed where Canon O'Hanlon and
Father Conroy and the reverend John Hughes S.J. were taking
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tea and sodabread and butter and fried mutton chops with catsup and talking about
Cuckoo
Cuckoo
Cuckoo.
because it was a bird that came out of its little house to tell the time that Gerty MacDowell noticed the time that she was there because she was as quick as anything about a thing like that, was Gerty MacDowell, and she noticed at once that that foreign gentleman that was sitting on the rocks looking was
Cuckoo
Cuckoo
Cuckoo.